broadway is dark tonight

My titles keep being the songs Im listening to haha...
I was sitting in the hospital yesterday reading my book for world lit and I fell asleep. It all caught up to me finally. Im drained. I need a night to myself and just time to myself in general. Today I will be continuing this but like I was told today "without the issues that happen with life can you even imagine how bored you would be?" I wish I didnt have these issues but it is perfect sense. Im kind of sick of being uphappy so I decided no matter how mad I get and how upset I get I will not dig myself into a whole as big as I did. Everything just kept getting worse. I also decided Im not going to take it out on other people. I've found myself lately getting so frusterated Im yelling at my mom and dad and thats something that I dont like doing because I feel so bad about it but I cant help it. A recap about everything thats going on, my grandma is in the hospital. She's going to be ok. She started to go into a depression because of what happened to my aunt (her daughter) and she stopped eating and started getting really sick. So overall the doctor said she had a mild heartattack and her kidneys are starting to fail but she will be okay they said her kidneys can be saved and basically she has to hydrate herself again or as my mom said "re dehydrate..hydrat....(long pause and she looks up at me) I dont think Ive laughed that hard in a while. I just look at her and was like stop making up words and she started laughing. Anyway...ACT/MME is not fun at all however it does go by really quick. I wish juniors got a day off now I dont think its fair that everyone else got the day off. Im kind of sick of sitting though, like when I get to class I dont want to sit anymore this is killing me....