Secrets

The last post I had helped get to much out of me. My god. I was seriously about to explode. The blog was a little personal so I eventually took it out but anyway. I guess things have been better since then. I talked to my friend and its better i guess you could say. I'm still going a little crazy because of the secret. I hate when people want me to keep secrets. Its so stressful. I'm not saying I cant keep them cause I can I'm good at that but this one was just crazy and I was in complete shock like I need someone to talk to about it but theres nobody. I guess you could say somewhere in my mind I thought that maybe there were signs but I don't know. She's by far one of my best friends so I could never let her down since she's never let me down I just I'm to young and to stressed out now to deal with this. OK on to something else cause I feel myself getting stressed again. I think you can tell since all of my grades are slipping. I'm doing so bad, worse is, is that I'm spending so much of my time trying to get a better grade in my AP history class that I haven't been doing my homework in my other classes because I have to outline a 20-25 page chapter a night which takes almost 2 1/2 hours and I didn't finish my outline for yesterday so I have like almost 2 full chapters to read by tomorrow. I have to figure out a way to get back on track. I was never like this. I'm starting to feel like maybe I should get a tutor or maybe start staying after for extra help but that's when my teenage laziness kicks in. I have no idea what to do. I want a snow day tomorrow so bad just so that I can have a day to get myself together and have everything done. I need to just motivate myself to go home and do my homework. Anyway we will see if that happens.